Sun & Moon

Do you really love me

Or do you just say I love you so that I will love you

I so desperately wish to fix

Your brokenness and insecurities 

All the good things get the best of me 

I've spent 21 years building up who I am

By the only man

Who will ever tell me what I'm worth

All the way to death with stakes in his hands

All you can see is your past

You're blanketing it over me

It's like painting white roses

Something other than they were meant to be

Send to me

A sunflower

Petals in bloom

Yellow as ever 

Reflecting like the moon

Bring me the sunshine 

Plus the right amount of rain

Don't overload me with this pain

Drowning me out

Overcoming the light

My wings
Are too damp to take flight 

Trapped by the best and worst of every part of myself

Magnified

Don't tell me I am less than I am

Make me soar and touch the sky 

Then flick me into a fearful night 

So entranced by the sun

I forgot it goes down

When I awake it's always dark now

I seem to be sleeping 

While the sun's in the background 

Closing my eyes 

On the night shift

I can't see in the dark forever 

With a temporary glow stick

I want the highs

Want to lie 

In your dazed eyes 

I want the natural comfort of your presence

To keep me in that paradise

Now I recall the day

When you sent me the picture of an eclipsing moon

Transitioning from a bright darkish grey 

To full black

And back

Again

The eclipse is you

Now I understand

I want to give you the strength to overcome your eclipse

But you're a moon and you live for the shifts

It's your natural progression

I can't change your cycle

Just know I'll always be with you

On the other side of the earth

Loving you from a distance 

I accept that you'll never see

Someone's worth

When the sun and moon shine 

On opposite sides