Crossroads

I haven't written in a long time

Which is crazy

A lot more than usual on my mind

Been through a relationship and a breakup

Just a couple short months 

Not sure how to go through a make up

My priorities have been through the ringer

Kicked carelessly like a smashed can

Set aside far enough to leave a bruised man

My thoughts not going through 

I think I caught my hand

Reaching into the vending machine of life

Picked the button labeled "Don't think twice"

If time was currency I've invested what I had into 

Something I wished but knew wouldn't last

I can't go back

Have to push forward for the prize

Unearned but received 

Mercifully, in the next life

Cause I believed the lies

Left my soul deprived

Traded trust and belief 

For my own selfish mind

Who am I left to wonder

Thinking I know what's best for myself

I've been picked from death

Chosen by grace

Forgot what was done

Lost sight of his face

Now I'm back 

His arms wide open

Turned away

Not leaving time for sulking

Taking on the challenge

Though the roads much smaller

Been swaying side to side

Now I'm ready to be sober

Be careful when you're strong

At your highest it's easier to fall

Changing up the flow

Surrounding myself with people who I know

To encourage, challenge and strengthen

From a place and perspective not normally taken

Letting go of the fears of what anyone will think

Not giving control to mentalities not shaped by the ink

I'm a little beaten but ready for the real path

Grateful to be here and hopeful for what lasts