Before the Boomerang

With so much change going on

It's hard to sit to reflect 

Every moment of recollection 

Is a never ending recollect 

Like rolling downhill at an upward speed

And at the same time 

Trying to pull aside  

To see how far you've come 

Impossible to do both at the same time 

Or maybe you can

And this is me trying to try 

Ask yourself this 

Can you ride the ride

And remember it at the same time?

Let yourself fall

And go backwards in the midst of it all?

I see the way things tend to add up 

Like I finally get math 

After years of doing enough to brush 

By 

Seems like the thing I avoid  

And carelessly go through the first time

Take a liking to me 

Finding their way back another time 

Like how the equations in math 

Have a formula to memorize 

I try to do it my way 

Until I realize

The formula has its way 

No matter how I hypothesize 

It goes like this in my life 

Cut the ties 

Discover what's right 

For you

What makes you come alive 

Yet the formula always brings me back

Points out the way 

You need to fall to get back 

Up

Ride the ride

To view it from the other side 

I have to learn to prioritize 

Dad's not pulling off my sheets anymore 

Telling me to rise and shine

Only accountable to myself

Only I'm responsible for my financial health

I'm working with a limited amount 

Although I feel rich with myself

My clothes stay on me longer

As I have less fun money for fashion

More responsibilities 

Like food 

And those types of rations 

Sometimes I feel angry and bitter 

Full of entitlement tears and lack

Other times I'm on top of the aspens 

Smelling a scent I never noticed before 

Released of worries and cares 

I go back and forth 

Teetering between 

Angry adult and blissful child 

Oh how I wish I could be like a child

More than once in a while 

 

Distance Pain

Only 3 more nights 

I spoke into the phone 

Convincing him he'll last

And trying not to sound so alone 

Silly how a distance 

Can cause mental strain 

Such human things 

Surviving in pain 

Funny how a feeling 

Might drive you to become insane

Attract you to a human 

Trying to master that same game 

I knew meeting you would whirl me

Into an amusement park of emotion 

Loving you 

Is like 

Riding the tallest wave 

In the ocean 

Endlessly drawn back to you 

You must get it too 

I can sense it in the way 

You choose 

Words and actions 

Always wanting to show you care 

Catching me off guard 

Like when you toss a ball

And the other person is stuck in awe

I watch it drift towards me and fall

You could be in Rome 

For all I know

I selfishly want you back 

Without my best friend 

I feel in lack 

I don't have an extra hand 

To wipe my newfound river 

Of tears 

You've unblocked the dam 

Holding back my fears 

I can't figure out 

How to put them back 

I don't have your arm 

To sling around my shoulder

Reminding me your here 

Reminding me when you're away

Currently unavailable 

To conveniently grab when I lay 

I am missing the match 

Even the small spark you bring 

To my kindle 

Igniting my soul again 

No longer can I pretend 

There's no meaning for the word 

Best friend 

Soul mates 

Lovers 

Partner 

Best friends 

Whatever we feel like calling it 

Is just a label for the perfection 

In each of those moments 

I wish I could deny 

That your not here 

By my side 

It feels like you've disappeared 

But you're only Michigan 

I'm only here  

I treasure the moments 

Every single one 

When you're near 

Perfectly Aligned

As the times comes 

And goes

I will never forget the way 

You hold me close

When the time stops 

Allows us to pause for a second

I will soak up your eyes 

Recall every moment 

When you've brushed my tears

Called me beautiful 

Accepted my sadness

Appreciated my mind 

When you've respected my freedom 

Pushed me out of my comfort line 

I can't help but fantasize 

Dream about what our future would be like 

All we could do 

All we will do 

Hand in hand 

Heart in heart 

Soul in soul 

I feel it all 

Over the phone 

3000 miles away 

Your joy and pain 

Our connection is one I know many desire 

We can be children again 

Loving again 

Over committed 

To this never ending fire 

You may not be with me 

Everywhere I go 

But just know 

Wherever it is that I am 

In my heart

You will always go 

I don't need a text or reply 

I trust every bit of you 

I know you trust every piece of me 

On any end of the line 

I adore the way 

You let me inside 

I love you all the more 

Every time you put me aside 

To live your life 

I love who you are 

When I get to steal your eyes 

I love you the same 

Alone 

Looking up at the sky 

Especially at night 

Sinking into the reflection of the moon

Becoming even more reminded of you

Just as fine as if you were there

I realize my love is just as strong here as it is anywhere 

Loving you is so easy 

I know it is nothing but right

Like finding the best friend 

Who always points you back to the light 

Never running out of things to appreciate 

You're never too early 

Never too late

Impossible to imagine you coming into my life

At any other time 

The more I am with you 

I continue to find 

A mind, soul and heart with mine 

Perfectly aligned 

Heart Lost in it All

Crumpled up paper

Tossed to the basket

Thoughts overwhelm 

Excited and impatient 

I can't mask it

Goals, hopes, dreams, pursuits 

Big words and visions 

All I have to do is follow through

Will I make it? 

Can desire become real?

I have to make it happen

Eat better than those college meals

While they're away from home 

The real world on pause 

I'm figuring out taxes, income and business laws

They'll see

This college dropout 

Is nothing but a socially constructed phrase

Said enough times 

Make us feel like losers

I wonder who's really in the haze

Expectations

Speculations

Motivations

Absurd words

Directing our lives

Definitions abused

Meanings overused 

Heart lost in it all 

When Love is Right

When love is right

It happens naturally

You don't force or fight

When love is right

It happens before you know

Makes you oh, so high

When love is right

You don't have to question anyone else

True love prevails with light

When love is right

You don't feel weak or confused

It captures and proves its might

When love is right

You don't wonder if you're the only one

There is a want on both sides

When love is right

You are empowered as an individual

And yet, you choose to be with that other person

So, together you can take on life

You don't let the past pains get in the way

When they come up

You choose to let them come so they can fade

You don't need to have them

To feel complete

You are both whole parts of the pie

Choosing to be together out of want, not need

You lift each other up

Not demean

You're headed in the same direction of growth

In your beliefs

You bring up and issue to come to a resolve

Not to find security

In something to temporarily dissolve

The big picture makes more sense

On the journey with them

You'll want them with you in every step

You propel each other forward

Feeling more free and alive

It's always a risk to love what you could lose

But that's when you know the love is right 

Galaxies Between Us

The galaxies between us

Time traveling to get closer

Feels like infinity

Chasing the height of our figure 8

Going around again

Running the track to get back to begin 

I know you're the one

With you I'm in full bloom

We can't help but attract and reflect

I am the sun

You are the moon

The galaxies within us 

Call for a telescope to peek at the soul 

I'd peer through the glass every night

Watching the process of your light

Becoming full

I'm connected to your movements

Latched on through the up and down

As the rhythm of your spirit shifts

Observing as you come close then retract

I'm in love with it all

Enjoying your watches time clicks

The galaxies that connect us

They've proven scientists wrong

We're faster than the speed of light

Drawn together by an unstoppable force

Unbelievable possibilities occur
When the love brings us to life

Taken around the figure 8 again

The more we experience and appreciate the light

The more apparent the lack of it is

Darker becomes the night

Love Drunk

When I'm here with you
Oh, it feels so right

It's like I'm drunk on life

And you're my new high

Taken so far

Far away from here

And all I can think

Is how I want you near

It's crazy how fast

Time can pass

When you're loving every moment

No more focus on the past

I told you from the start

I wouldn't let anything or one

Tear this apart

I want to fly with you

Fall with you

Throw logs of love 

On the fire with you

Even when I'm not with you

A part of my heart is

I'm not always sure how it's happening 

But I'm sure of this 

We did not make this love happen

Something else chose us 

I could kiss your lips forever 

In your eyes I fully trust 

The more of you I see

The more I tend to feel complete 

So now I'm trying to find a balance 

Loving myself, so I can love you, is how I've planned it

Your love is my drug

I can't take a drink now  

And think it'll be enough 

This Love

I hate that I miss you when you're away

So I channel my feelings into an organized disarray 

I can feel each part of myself

Spirit, soul and body 

Interconnected and working together 

Moving forward at the same pace 

My lips and body tremble 

Each part of me melts 

More fluttery than butterflies 

More of a crush than any high school crushes I've felt 

Destined to be here 

I peek back at where I've been 

All that has brought me here 

Recognizing the levels of true purpose

Each momentous and life changing event 

Rolling like it's boiling to the surface 

Fighting back my fears 

Feels more like letting go 

When you're holding me near 

Learning to more clearly articulate my thoughts 

Accepting the challenge to rise to the occasion 

Overcome the hurdles and blocks 

Overwhelmed with appreciation 

Gratefulness abounds 

The more that I receive 

The more I desire to pass it around 

It seeps, pours and spews out of me 

Working overtime to pitch in helping 

It comes out in tears of joy 

Shines bright in what we can't understand but still perceive 

I feel more selfless than ever before 

It is here I am truly free 

Free to believe what I believe 

Say it out loud all my crazy 

Sharing myself with you brings security 

I am enabled to let the good and bad 

Come to me so I can let them pass

The more I learn to become less about me 

I am let loose of any insecurities 

Effortlessly tossing love without expecting 

So much about you I cannot comprehend 

So I choose to accept 

When I leave your presence 

I feel like I've become connected with more depth 

I praise my God because without him you wouldn't be real

I know that without him we wouldn't be able to walk 

The way that this love feels 

Penny Team

I hear them say slow down, take your time

I know I can't blame them

But my past is what's behind

This is different

I can feel it surge through my spine

I feel the peace and comfort of you

Even while writing this line

The red flags I'm used to passing

Are everything you're lacking

The fences I should be keeping up

Seem limitless with you

I'm free to open up

Each moment with you seems hard to comprehend

Questioning reality

There really is someone who understands

I've spent my life tossing pennies

Unsure of a result but still wishing 

For a partner to create a team 

Enough times to reach tipping point

See you physically in front of me

I know now what I believe 

So with your penny thoughts

Toss more than plenty 

No words to explain you 

No story to share what I know and believe 

I'm comfortable with that

Nothing proves itself more than timing

I used to feel like a stopwatch

Waiting for the false connection to appear

And although it's only been a few weeks

My confidence in the future has never felt so clear

I can see it play out how it should be

Won't consider any other options

And for me, that's a big thing 

I fall asleep craving to have you on my mind

So you're with me at night

Accompanying me in my dreams

It makes up for the time

I'm not with you and hoping to be

I am taken to the higher heights

Replacing hopes and distorted lies

Making visions into real life

Learning how to let go and untie 

All the social norms and lines

Breakdown and disassemble

In front of our eyes

I see us as a team

Even in my dreams

And even more right now

We're together, conquering