This Love

I hate that I miss you when you're away

So I channel my feelings into an organized disarray 

I can feel each part of myself

Spirit, soul and body 

Interconnected and working together 

Moving forward at the same pace 

My lips and body tremble 

Each part of me melts 

More fluttery than butterflies 

More of a crush than any high school crushes I've felt 

Destined to be here 

I peek back at where I've been 

All that has brought me here 

Recognizing the levels of true purpose

Each momentous and life changing event 

Rolling like it's boiling to the surface 

Fighting back my fears 

Feels more like letting go 

When you're holding me near 

Learning to more clearly articulate my thoughts 

Accepting the challenge to rise to the occasion 

Overcome the hurdles and blocks 

Overwhelmed with appreciation 

Gratefulness abounds 

The more that I receive 

The more I desire to pass it around 

It seeps, pours and spews out of me 

Working overtime to pitch in helping 

It comes out in tears of joy 

Shines bright in what we can't understand but still perceive 

I feel more selfless than ever before 

It is here I am truly free 

Free to believe what I believe 

Say it out loud all my crazy 

Sharing myself with you brings security 

I am enabled to let the good and bad 

Come to me so I can let them pass

The more I learn to become less about me 

I am let loose of any insecurities 

Effortlessly tossing love without expecting 

So much about you I cannot comprehend 

So I choose to accept 

When I leave your presence 

I feel like I've become connected with more depth 

I praise my God because without him you wouldn't be real

I know that without him we wouldn't be able to walk 

The way that this love feels